Even if life has given up on you,
that doesn’t mean give up on yourself.
Even if the dreams you have don’t make sense to you,
don’t stop dreaming.
Even if you feel like you don’t have a vision,
that doesn’t mean you must stop visualizing.
Even if there is no life,
don’t stop living.
Even if you plough & nothing grows,
that doesn’t mean you must stop nurturing your plants.
Even if you are blind,
that doesn’t mean you can’t see.
Even if you are broken now,
that doesn’t mean you will never be whole again.
Even if you are hungry,
that doesn’t mean there is no food, it’s just that it is not your turn to have it.
Even if there is no meaning in your life,
that doesn’t mean you don’t have to live.
Even if today you see your life in darkness,
that doesn’t mean tomorrow won’t be light.
Even if you have given up on your hopes,
that doesn’t mean there is no hope for your life.
Even if you are bitter today,
that doesn’t mean you won’t be happy tomorrow.
Even if you are sick,
that doesn’t mean you won’t get better.
Even if everything in your life doesn’t matter,
that doesn’t mean you are not important.
Even if people don’t approve of you,
that doesn’t mean you are not worthy.
Even if you try today and fail,
that doesn’t mean you won’t make it tomorrow.
Even if you think of taking your life,
that doesn’t mean you must do it.
That feeling is just there for a while.
It reminds you that even if you are hurting at this moment,
you will be healed, restored and even better to face the new day.
by Sindi Mongake
When I wrote this poem my life was in a big mess I couldn’t see tomorrow. Meaning that there was no tomorrow for me, and I gave up dreaming because it didn’t make any sense. I was tired of living, of thinking, of feeling.
I have tried to kill myself because I felt like I couldn’t take it anymore, but I came to realization that there is hope and that the better life is possible. But if I succeed in suicide, I wouldn’t be here and experience what I am experiencing now and that I am not alone in the battle. So I would like to dedicate this to all the women who have suffered life adversities and scramble. I just want everyone to hold on to life.
About the author
Sindi is a singer, activist and mother. In 2006, she supported and performed at the Chosen FEW fundraising event held at Zethu Matebeni’s home in Melville. She shared her brilliant thoughts and expertise with former staff members at the Forum for the Empowerment of Women (FEW).