Ukushona komuntu yinto encane
Uthi usacabanga ukuthi unaye
Phatha phatha akasekho

I’ve lived with a Queen in her own castle
Many would think she’s Royalty
because she had all the bodyguards in the world
She served as my therapist

I lived with my personal assistant
because I needed guidance in everything I did.
Gogo was my super hero
When Mkhulu died he left me with a rock, Imbokodo
Umfazi owacishe washona ngesikhathi sempi kodwa uJehovah wala nempilo yakhe
Ngoba kuwuyena umhleli wezinto hayi thina

Imbokodo yami
My rock
She took her last breathe without me being there
Not that I could have stopped her soul from exiting her body
but saying goodbye
A proper goodbye
I don’t even know what a proper goodbye is

Death has done it again
How does the universe expect me to live without you?
What good will I serve if you’re not there to see me through?
Who should I share my frustrations with?
And who’s going to help me pick between 15 things I want to do

You’ve done it all
Believed in Me
and everything I did
You got me
You got my crazy activism days
and you understood that I am different
and allowed me to live my life as a different person

You knew all my moves
from organization to the next
from women’s rights to LGBTI rights
Each t-shirt I had on you knew why I had it and you understood it all

Ndlovukazi Shezi kaDlaba
Majola,
Mchunu,
Ngculunga,
Ntube
Uyidlalile indima yakho
wenza kwenzeka nasenkonzweni
Ubungumama onkophezimanzi
Othi makuba nzima ahlale phansi ngendolo abhekise enkosini
Qhawekazi lami
Mbokodo yami

Ntsika ebihlanganisa umndeni uwenze ube moya munye
Intombi yeVangeli
Ebihleli enkosini kuze kube sekugcineni
Kuthi noma izilingo zifikile kodwa uhlale edolweni!
Kuthi sekunzima
Uhlabelele uthi “kulungile baba uma kuyintando yakho”

Ithi impilo inzima
Ngiphetwe i stress
Ungikhumbuze ukuthi kuyathandazwa uma into ungayiboni kahle.
Ntombi yevangeli
Ebingakhathalele bala lamuntu
Hayibo isebenzile lentombi
Isebenzela ukumbona
Owadala izulu nomhlaba

Maye kufa kodwa siyakhona sonke!

by Maureen Velile Majola
© 21 June 2013

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