You’re not here tonight
You chose to send me the rain though
When it rains without you, I still feel you
When it rains you are usually the first to smile
and find peace no matter how crazy life is
Tonight it is raining and you are not here
I am finding peace
The peace of feeling you beside me
Because tonight you chose to send me the rain
When it rains without you
Tonight it is raining and you are not here
But you have chosen to reach into the deepest parts of me
and make me smile,
so special in your absence
Because tonight you have chosen to send me the rain
Zanemvula
Even though I seldom sleep when I am without you
Tonight sleep urges me like the ebb and flow of the ocean
I feel you next to me
Because you chose to send me the rain
I am because you’ll Be
The dwelling and the being
When it rains without you.
The pitter patter of the rains fall so easily onto the shoulders of my rest
They claim their throne in my beckoning of your presence
just to be submerged in the joy you be when it rains
You held me tight last night
when my soul rained to you
and you so gracefully showered yourself in me
because all you wanted me to know is that you are here for me
Tonight you chose to send me the rain
You kissed my heart with beauty
as I submit to the rain it is basking me in the rays of your healing feed
I am one with the rain in you and the rain that you are
There is rain dance tickling the core of me
Tonight you chose to send me the rain
The rain has stopped
Baby come back to me…
When it rains without you…
I am humbly reminded of how deep my love is for you
When it rains without you…
I want to keep on writing but it stopped
You are still with me when it rains
The rains stopped
Baby come back to me
I plead…
When the rains stopped I lost my words.
When it rains without you…
The rain came back
The beating drums inside me have subsided
Tonight you chose to send me the rain
so that I do not feel the void of your absences
You came back to me
I am palm to palm with you
The connection is stable
Your energy is permanent now
You came back to me
You chose to be with me
Tonight you sent me the rain
Butterflies are cooping up inside me
There you go again sounding your essence in harmonies
with the rains softening and scattering
Taking my heart on a magic carpet ride
Tonight you chose to send yourself to me through the rain
Yes you have shown me an entire world of a moment prolonged
I am consoled…
I am humbly reminded of how deep your love is for me…
When it rains without you!
By Christie van Zyl
© 2014
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