It’s funny

 its always strange

When people look at me and get shocked

When they find out that I masturbate

You see they say butch/tom lesbians don’t masturbate

Because apparently most of us don’t like being touched

Well I’m not that kind of lesbian

Actually I’m not that kind of woman

I masturbate

And if I lived on my own it would be included in my daily routine

Because how else am I going know myself

How else will I know you?

I’m the kind of woman that is not a fan of watching porn

And if I do it must get straight to the point

I don’t give a shit about the storyline

I actually get off easy by reading

I like reading porn

The story always makes me anxious as if I was there

As a fly on the wall

The internet has so many of these stories

Woman on woman

My first time with her

When she touched me

When I came

When she pulled out a toy

My first toy experience

These titles are endless…and the stories excite me

I love the descriptions of some of these stories

And by the time I get to the conclusion I’ve already got my eyes closed

Creating my own introduction

I’ve had more orgasms with my thoughts

Then I have had physically

Because you see my thoughts take me to faraway places

Places where gravity doesn’t exist

Where I’m fucking on a cloud

Fucking in the night sky

Grabbing stars to hold back my quivering

I’ve fucked in places I’ve never been

London

Nigeria

Jamaica

Brazil

New York

Bali

India

My list is endless

Sometimes in my mind I rewind to the things that I have done

The bathroom

The wardrobe

The kitchen

Its floor

The nunnery, don’t ask me

I think about the peaks of my sex life

Where I slept with women and had no conversation

Women that only used their eyes to have me

Woman that wanted to know more than meets the eye

Women that wanted to be held after

Women that passed out as soon as they came

Women that came with waterfalls

Women that screamed loudly

Women that moaned gently

I’m talking about women that have dominated me

Women that never gave me a chance to be on top

Kinky women

Women that made me quickly take water breaks

Damn I have gone to places

Not only in my mind

You see I love sex

I love the word vagina

I love the word pussy too

I love shy women

That beat around the bush

I love straightforward women

That ask for what they want

In fact take it without asking

I love women that are not afraid to masturbate in front of me

You see another thing about me

Is that I’m the type of woman that

Likes to look

I want to see the journey

I don’t want to find myself at the end

I love looking

Licking

Touching

Feeling

Tasting

Smelling

Explaining

And by that I mean telling you how you look like so

I don’t mind if you say it’s weird

I can be in between your knees for minutes

Just taking in the aroma of your flower

I’ll use words like

Beautiful

Delicate

Interesting

Wild

Wet

Sexy

I’ll even place it in a different angle just to see it differently

And start describing it again

I’ll use words like

Innocent

Bitter/sweet

Pink

Wet

Amazing

You see I’m the kind of person that is very comfortable

With the topic of sex

I am a butch lesbian

That shaves her vagina

Sometimes I trim it down

That all depends on my mood that day

I like being kissed on the neck

I like being teased

I like being taken…touched

I like being scratched

I am a butch lesbian

That loves to go down

I love touching, kissing necks

Breasts, waists

I love ass

I love the female body

I love its stretch marks

Its dimples

I love its smoothness

I love its bumps

I love its curves

I love every woman that embraces it

And looks at themselves and

Says that they are beautiful

Because I am a butch lesbian

That looks at herself and thinks

My gosh I’m a beautiful woman.

by Andiswa Dlamini
© 2013

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