by Charmain Carrol
When you love someone,
but the best option is to stay away…
I seem to think of you every second minute of every hour of the day.
I keep seeing flashes of you the morning after it all began.
I keep seeing your hands holding me so tightly,
and I never want you to let go.
What could it be?
Love at first sight?
I’m too old for all of the above
I should know what I want.
I should know if I’m in love or not.
But I don’t… or do I???
All I want is you
All I want is to be in your arms and feel safe.
All I want is to laugh with you, I want to be happy
I can’t remember when the last time I was in love.
The last time I was swept off my feet.
The last time someone made me smile
and my cheeks just hurt because I couldn’t stop.
Was taken out on a romantic dinner,
and had my feet rubbed.
and laughed over silly jokes
but it seemed to be the funniest thing ever
and got lost in the kisses we shared.
But we can’t be
We can’t be who we want to be
She is with another
I’m with another
Whoever wrote the book of love
forgot to mention that you cannot choose for the heart
It unfortunately has a mind of its own
It has its own taste
It has no age
It has its own and its own language.
That only you and I understand
You would say the silliest things
and I would find the humour in it
So what is this?
I’m to walk away; I can’t seem to pick up my feet.
I’m to stop calling but when I look at my phone
you’re the first person I want to call
I’m to stop loving you.
But my heart skips a beat at the mention of your name
When I think of you instead of butterflies in my tummy
I feel the whole Zoo roaming around
I can’t seem to stop smiling
How am I to stop loving you
when love is the only thing we have
Staying away is not an option,
but if it makes you happy or it’s what you want
With blood sweat and tears I will standstill and watch you leave.
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