2014 Nov. 17: “I love how my two portraits contradict each other”

by Sicka Star-ban

My Faces and Phases journey started in the year 2013 when I met author and visual activist, Zanele Muholi.
I, Nonkululeko Sharon Mthunzi known as Sicka Star-ban, remember her reaction when she first saw my cousin Nontuthuzelo Mduba and I.   Her exact words were “I don’t work with people under the age of 18 years”, we laughed and told her our ages.

 

The 2013 Mr Daveyton winners. From Left - Right: Nontuthuzelo Mduba, Lebo Magaela and Nonkululeko Sharon Mthunzi.

The 2013 Mr Daveyton winners. From Left – Right: Nontuthuzelo Mduba, Lebo Magaela and Nonkululeko Sharon Mthunzi.

 

A lot was going on that year. It was our first time entering Mr Lesbian Daveyton and my cousin Ntuthu walked away with the title of First Prince and I with the title Mr Personality. It was also the year I started my music career, and not forgetting that it was the beginning of my Faces and Phases journey. My first photo shoot was the day after the pageant at my home in Daveyton right along with Nontuthuzelo Mduba, Lebogang Magaela who was Mr Lesbian Daveyton 2013 and we were in our formal wear. At first I was nervous because I was not used to huge cameras but I soon relaxed.

 

 

Sharon Shaz Mthunzi sm_ Daveyton Johannesburg 2013

 

Muholi told me to relax and so I did and soon got used to it. From thereon, we took amazing portraits. In the Faces and Phases book, two of my pictures are featured, one which was taken on the day of my first shoot with Muholi and the other which was taken at my home in my bedroom while in my traditional/ancestral clothes. In my hand I carried ishoba lamadlozi. I love how my two portraits contradict each other to the viewer but I am a traditional healer as well as a musician/composer. I straddle two worlds that most people deem highly impossible to mix. They say however that I am the living proof that now can be steeped in their traditions and culture but at the same living and creating in the 21st century, a testament that both elements can exist.

 

Sharon 'Shaz' Mthunzi 2 _ Daveyton Johannesburg 2014

 

I have many goals, hopes and dreams – some which I have attained – but I never pictured myself in a book. To me this is extraordinarily beyond what I had set out to achieve in 2014.
2014 is my year because I was crowned Mr Lesbian Daveyton 2014, I am featured in the Faces and Phases (2006 – 2014) book and my music career is taking gigantic leaps. I had the honor of composing the Faces and Phases song, which I performed at the successful book launch.

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2014 July 10: My remarkable Durban experience

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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2014 Nov. 17: Announcement – MoMA present two best South African artists

 

MoMA announcement The Friends of Education of The Museum of Modern Art present

 

Conversations: Among Friends, A Perspective on South Africa featuring artist ZANELE MUHOLI and actress NOMONDE MBUSI moderated by Judith B. Hecker, Assistant Curator, Department of Drawings and Prints

Monday, November 17, 2014
7:00 pm program | 8:15 pm reception

Doors open at 6:45 pm

 The Celeste Bartos Theater (T3)
The Lewis B. and Dorothy Cullman Education and Research Building
The Museum of Modern Art
4 West 54 Street

 Tickets ($35 General Admission, $20 Members, $12 Students) may be purchased at The Museum information and film desks, online at MoMA.org, or through The Friends of Education Office.

Presented by The Friends of Education of The Museum of Modern Art as part of the series Conversations: Among Friends, this evening’s program features a conversation between artist Zanele Muholi and actress, director, and playwright Nomonde Mbusi, moderated by Judith B. Hecker, MoMA’s assistant curator for drawings and prints. The program will focus on Muholi’s work as a “visual activist” dedicated to issues of race, gender, and sexuality; and will reflect on this year’s 20th anniversary of democracy in South Africa—still a work in progress. Muholi is best known for her photographic series Faces and Phases, five of which are included in MoMA’s collection.

Begun in 2006, this series portrays black members of the LGBTI community in South Africa and around the world, giving voice to their stories and displacing conventional perceptions. Nomonde Mbusi, one of Muholi’s participants in Faces and Phases and an artist and activist in her own right, joins the discussion. Following the program, guests are invited to continue the conversation at an intimate reception catered by Fantasy Fare in The Cullman Mezzanine. Muholi’s newest book, Zanele Muholi: Faces and Phases 2006–2014 (2014) will be available for purchase and signing by the artist.

Zanele Muholi was born in Umlazi township in Durban, South Africa, and currently lives in Johannesburg. Prior to her photographic journeys, she worked as a human rights activist, raising issues facing black lesbian women in South Africa.

In 2009 she founded Inkanyiso, an organization centered on visual arts, activism, media, and advocacy. Muholi studied at the Market Photo Workshop in Johannesburg, and graduated from Ryerson University in Toronto in 2009 with an MFA in documentary media.
She is the winner of awards from the 2009 Rencontres de Bamako African Photography Biennial; the 2013 Carnegie International; and recipient of a 2013 Prince Claus Award.
Muholi’s work has been featured in the 55th Venice Biennale; Documenta 13; the 29th São Paulo Biennial; and has been shown at prestigious museums worldwide. Her work can be found in numerous museum collections including The Museum of Modern Art, New York; San Francisco Museum of Modern Art; South African National Gallery, Cape Town, South Africa; Centre Georges Pompidou, Paris, France; Tate Modern, London, United Kingdom; The Menil Collection, Houston; and The Walther Collection, Neu-Ulm, Germany among others. Her award-winning documentary Difficult Love (2010) has been shown at film festivals around the world.

 

Nomonde Mbusi was trained in dramatic arts at the University of Zululand. Since 1997, she has performed in numerous theater productions and is best known for her role as Fikile in Flipping the Script, a four women show on gender-based violence (2004-07). In 2004 she co-founded Insika Productions with Muholi, where she worked as artistic director and facilitator.  Through Insika, she organized creative arts healing workshops for women survivors of violence in organizations such as POWA-People Opposing Women Abuse and FEW-Forum for the Empowerment of Women. Her recent acting accomplishments include the lead role of Brenda on SABC 1’s drama Usindiso-Redemption, and Thando in Dr. John Kani’s play Nothing but The Truth at the Soweto Theatre, along with several other television and radio performances.

 

Judith B. Hecker, Assistant Curator in the Department of Drawings and Prints at MoMA, organized Impressions from South Africa, 1965 to Now: Prints from The Museum of Modern Art (2011), which featured some eighty prints, artist’s books, posters, and wall stencils by artists living in South Africa and acquired for the collection; and co-curated MoMA’s presentation of the touring exhibition William Kentridge: Five Themes (2010), authoring Trace: William Kentridge, Prints from The Museum of Modern Art on the occasion.

 

Image: Zanele Muholi. Self Portrait. DATE TK. Courtesy Yancey Richardson Gallery.
© 2014 Zanele Muholi;  Zanele Muholi. Nomonde Mbusi, Berea, Johannesburg (detail). 2007. Courtesy of Yancey Richardson Gallery.
© 2014 Zanele Muholi

 

 

 

 

 

 

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2014 Nov. 16: The best private gay wedding photos

by Lindeka Qampi

What: Gay Wedding

When:  7th Aug. 2014

Where: Johannesburg, South Africa

 

2014 Aug. 7 Main seats_27481. Decoration: Kim Cordier was Décor person who was responsible in making the entire venue glitz in crystals, chandeliers, red and white and also incorporating rainbow/LGBTI colours in the garden and Reception area.

 

2014 Aug. 7 Love seats_2761

Important items on our wedding list were:

1.Venue, Food and drinks, Photography, Invitations, Guests, Pastor, Decoration, cake, Suits and shoes, Entertainment system.

 

2014 Aug. 7 sword king_2767

 

2014 Aug. 7 bow ties_2769

 

2014 Aug. 7 the suits_27722. Suits and Bow ties: Red it’s our colour because of its simplicity and warm feeling of love.

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3. Makeup artist: was Nomagugu Mwelase who is a beautician working in her own studio in Soweto and has been doing beauty work for quite a number of people in the entertainment industry that’s why we recommended her.

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  1. Pastor John Klooper from the Andre Murray Reforming Church in Pretoria Brooklyn blessed our ceremony and we are the church members.

 

2014 Aug. 7 Skara & Mlu _ in dressing room_2796

 

2014 Aug. 7 M&S_2831

  1. Flowers exchange ceremony was the highlight of our wedding which portrait love and spiritual path as gay Christians.

  2. Venue Owner: we had a very good relationship with Barbara as we used to visit the restaurant at the venue; she eventually became our wedding planner.

2014 Aug. 7 Mlu best_2821

 

2014 Aug. 7 Skara & Mlu_2812

 7. On the Red Couch: We waited in the wedding suit to prepare our makeup, putting on our wedding suits, and conduct the interview with journalists from Inkanyiso.

2014 Aug. 7 S&M_2826

 

2014 Aug. 7 Seats @ venue_28388. Garden: the garden set up with fresh lilies and smell of lavender was the heart of the beauty of the wedding as the red and white colours filled the place with joy peace and happiness.

2014 Aug. 7 Skara & Mlu main pic_2823

 

Wedding Plans

We meet 2 years ago in Johannesburg and after sometime we decided to get married legally with a small private wedding of 30 people as guests.
We are staying together in Helderkruin, North West of Johannesburg.
We  we have visited most restaurants and other venues around and eventually that led us in choosing Valverde Country Hotel in Lammar Moore, Beyers Naude.
It was the perfect wedding venue as it is outside Johannesburg, quiet and beautiful.
It actually took us 3 months to prepare for everything as we always knew that we will get married. We knew what we wanted luckily had very supportive and respecting friends and family in our lives.

Through commitment and sharing of responsibilities we were able to achieve it all although there were some hiccups here and there. We thank all people who dedicated their time and made our wedding to be the Best and Perfect thing in our lives.

 

 

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2014 Oct. 29: Announcement – 2015 Light Work Artists-in-Residence

We Are Pleased to Announce
The 2015 Light Work Artists-in-Residence

Every year Light Work invites between twelve and fifteen artists to come to Syracuse to devote one month to creative projects. Over 400 artists have participated in Light Work’s Artist-in-Residence Program, and many of them have gone on to achieve international acclaim.
The residency includes a $5,000 stipend, a furnished artist apartment, 24-hour access to our state-of-the-art facilities, and generous staff support. Work by each Artist-in-Residence is published in a special edition of Contact Sheet: The Light Work Annual along with an essay commissioned by Light Work.
Work by former Artists-in-Residence is also part of the Light Work Collection.
We are pleased to announce the 2015 Light Work Artists-in-Residence!
Join us in congratulating this great group of artists here.

 

Light Work, an artist-run, non-profit organization, has been supporting emerging and under-recognized artists working in photography since 1973. Here’s how to help us continue that support and get something in return:
SUBSCRIBE to our award-winning journal Contact Sheet and receive five annually printed issues of one of the longest-running photography magazines in the world.
PURCHASE signed and numbered original prints from our exclusive 2013 program.
COLLECT special signed editions of newly released photography books.
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2014 Oct. 29: “I always avoided fights”

by Vania Cruz

I’ve always known that I’m different from the person standing next to me, unique and intelligent.

Lend me your brains not your ears because I want to paint my picture on it.

My name is Vania Cruz and I was born on the 17th of February 1985. I live in Vosloorus with my mother my two siblings including my nephew and niece.
My mum would say don’t owe someone respect, don’t look at what they can do for you and life can’t always go as we plan so relax and enjoy today.

 

Vania as seen by Zanele Muholi during the second part of Faces and Phases. (c) Photos by Lindeka Qampi and Zanele Muholi (2014)

Vania as seen by Zanele Muholi during the second part of Faces and Phases.
© Photos by Lindeka Qampi (2014)

 

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Baby Vania, picture taken from family album. © Photo by Zanele Muholi (2014)

She would say be a blessing to others as you are a blessing to me. We talk about anything and she’s the best role model, as you can see her fruits in me. I don’t remember coming out to my family as a lesbian for all I know is that I have a supportive family.

I enjoy being an aunt as I love kids and they bring joy in me. I am in a relationship with Bonfilia ‘Sesi’ Mbele and my wish is to enjoy life with her by side.
She calls me her twin as we have a lot in common mostly writing. I have learned that family is more than blood and looks. My family is loving, sharing and encouraging one another.

Business: I spent more than 5 years in the streets living a life of a street vendor “Synman” was the name given to me by one of my customers and even now people still call me Synman, I mean young, old, females and males.

Through all the hardships and tribulations I learned that my problems are not bigger than me as I would be a social worker in the street, I would be a friend to someone who needs a shoulder to cry on.

What I know is that I managed to change someone’s negative thinking towards LGBTI. The streets made me happier because of the different people I met of which I liked to work with and help at the end like contribute to someone else success.

As a lesbian working on the streets, encouraging young people to focus on their studies as I matriculated as well, there were those people who couldn’t understand the fact that a woman can survive the street life and rise above no matter what comes her way.

I always avoided fights and minded my own business and took every critic towards me as an advise. Looking at how many successful businessmen and women who started small, and I am one of them.

With just a packet of snacks, sweets and a box of cigarettes I managed to build myself a room and even go across the border using this money just to enjoy a two weeks vacation.

Leadership: I am one of the founders of Tisa Tshireletso organisation in Vosloorus. We are aiming at empowering youth, woman and children.
My dream is to be an architect start my own company and be an author as well.

The name of my book is called “When the cup is full” this book talks about a young girl who had a wish to meet her father. As she digs her past she found out that she was born as an intersex and that was not the only secret she found out, the big question is how did she end up in jail?
Not that she had committed crime at the age of five years. This book is based on a true story.

I want to do motivational programs and create a platform for young people to get them ready for adulthood, teach them how they can start their own businesses, and to show case their talents.

 

 

 

 

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2014 May 8: “I was not aware that this project would be this big”

by Hlengiwe Amanda Nyandeni 

 

My name is Hlengiwe Amanda Nyandeni, but I am better known as China.  I consider myself as a fun, sweet and lovely  individual to be around other people.  I was born on the 15th July 1982 in Eshowe, North of KwaZulu Natal.

 

Amanda 'China' Nyandeni, Yeoville, Johannesburg, 2007

Featuring in Faces and Phases (2006 – 2014) book.       Amanda ‘China’ Nyandeni, Yeoville, Johannesburg, 2007.                       (c) Photo by Zanele Muholi

I am the only child to my mother and I have half siblings from my father’s side.

I live and work in Johannesburg.
Prior to working I attended college and graduated with a certificate in Office Administration.
When I am not at work, I enjoy watching soccer, listening to music, and going to theatre.  I am just a happy person who takes each day as it comes.

I identify as a lesbian, a person who happens to be in love with another sex same person, but it does not change the fact that I am human first.  My mother fully accepted me from the day I came out to her and she is very supportive.  My extended family have been supportive too.

I am in a long-term relationship. I feel like love is a beautiful feeling shared by two people, whether same sex or not. Love is love and everyone deserves to experience it fully without shame, fear or discrimination.

The violence against us is a sad reality that we live with daily, with some experiencing it and some reading about it, where fellow human beings believe that inflicting pain to the next person would change who they are into what they want them to be. It is not every man who is like that (homophobic and violent).  Some men are very supportive, it is a difficult situation that I highly doubt that we would ever have a solution to people who believe in what they believe in and are extremely afraid of change.

I stay in a fairly safe area and I have not experienced any harm, probably because it is in a suburban area.  As for my neighbours around where I live, we hardly know each other, but I believe that if I was in a township dynamics would be different.  Also it could be that I have not personally experienced any harm due to my sexuality because I am in a semi open closet.
I am human first, a daughter, a sister, a friend, a fun loving being who loves life.

If I were to become a leader/ politician/ radio or Tv presenter I would most probably talk about the basic needs of human beings, basic human rights issues. I’m aware that one can never please everyone, but the reality is that when you are in that position you have to always try.

When I agreed to participate in Zanele Muholi’s project it was mainly because of the love and respect I have for Muholi, and women. I was not aware that this project would be this big, I thought it was Muholi having fun with her camera, but it has turned out to be a beautiful project and now I realize the importance of it.  I am greatly humbled to have participated in it and I hope my words will make a difference.
It is possible to LOVE and to be LOVED!!!

 

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2014 Oct. 31: Visiting Queer families and friends

 

Lerato Dumse Mally Simelane & Muholi _ KwaThema_00001753_edit2014 Oct. 23:  The day we visited the Simelane family in KwaThema.
In the picture is Lerato Dumse, Mally Simelane (Eudy’s mother) and Zanele Muholi.

 

Lindeka Qampi _ @ Eudy's home_000017492014 Oct. 23: Lindeka Qampi photographing the three as we continued with our conversation…

 

Bev Ditsie photographed by Lindeka Qampi_000017752014 Oct. 23:  Lindeka photographed Bev. Ditsie after Simon Nkoli Lecture held at University of Johannesburg (UJ), Kingsway Campus, Johannesburg.

 

Nosi & Leptie _ the making of Faces & Voices_000020962014 Oct. 24:  Connecting Faces and Phases participants. In the picture is Leptie Phume at Nosi Marumo’s home in Westgate, Roodepoort, Johannesburg.Phumlani Mdlalose and Lindeka Qampi documenting their interaction…

 

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2014 Oct. 27:  Sicka Star-ban in conversation with Nhlanhla ‘Mshezner’ Mofokeng at her home in Daveyton.

Sicka & Major on MogaleFM_00002142

 

 

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With members of Tisa Tshiriletso in Vosloo, Sweeto, Fe, and our guest from Paris, Veronica, Spokes, Vania and Muholi…

2014 Oct. 26 Vania & Family_000020282014 Oct. 26: Vania Maoze with her family in Vosloo, Johannesburg.

Lindeka with Elisa PICA and father_000019262014 Oct. 28: Lindeka Qampi teaching photography to Elisa Pica who is one of the young female photographers at Aurora Girls High School.

Thando Methane Oupa & Lindeka Qampi_00001523

L-R:  Thando Methane and her grandfather featuring Lindeka Qampi the photography teacher…

 

 

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2014 Oct. 30: “Do you remember me?”

It has been two months since you passed on.

There has never been a day that went by since that dreadful day that I have not thought of you.

Each day that passes with tears in my eyes I think of you and what you meant to me.

My thoughts are full of question marks.
Why did you have to die?
Why did you have cancer?
Why didn’t I try harder to get you to see a doctor sooner?
Did I fail you?
Was it time?
Where are you?
How are you feeling?
Do you remember me?
Most of all I wonder if you are OK where you are.

At first I did not want to believe it. Then I felt the most excruciating pain in my heart, a kind of pain I cannot explain to another, pain that only I can understand.

I thought talking about it will ease the pain, I thought crying would make me feel better, I thought getting drunk will help, but none of the above worked because deep in my heart I still feel it.

Even though my tears are getting less with each day that passes. I still cry and I miss you. I know these questions will remain unanswered, at least not in this lifetime, but I still have them.

There was a time that I was filled with overwhelming anger. Angry at myself for not trying harder, angry at you my love for giving in to death, angry at death for stealing the only thing that made sense in my life, angry at God for allowing it to happen especially after I prayed so hard and begged him to spare your life. I am still dealing with that. I know I should not blame anyone but I lost treasure, and find it difficult to understand.

I have had so many dreams of you since your passing, some soothing to the heart, some heartbreaking, some just added to my anger, but most of all some reassured me that maybe just maybe you are in a better place. I wish I could have as clear sign that you are ok.

I wish I could have a clear sign that you ok, that somehow we will always be connected. I hope you know just how much I miss you still and that I still love you dearly.

I have heard these words so many times ‘in time it will be better’, ‘time is the greatest healer’, ‘you will feel better in time’ that they started sounding like bluh bluh bluh bluh…

Every time I heard these words it only felt worse each day as it sunk in that I will never see you again in the land of the mortals. Now that time has lapsed I am starting to understand what these words meant because indeed I am feeling better. Now I can talk about you without shedding a tear.

I am far from acceptance, I must confess, but I know that though I may never understand I will eventually accept and move on. I still visit your grave whenever I miss you too much, I am not sure why but I feel better every time I do.

It still feels like a bad dream that you are gone forever, that my eyes shall never behold your face nor my ears you voice hear, that my hands shall never touch you nor my body your touch feel.

I remember you and all the good times, the challenges, the arguments, the laughs, the tears, the joys and most of all the dreams we had for the future.

Well you are gone my love my friend and my soul mate but you are far from forgotten you shall forever be in my heart for you left an everlasting mark in my life.

You had an impact that no one has ever had, you were one of a kind, a once in a lifetime. If there is anyone out there more honest than you I am yet to meet them, you were honest even if the truth was bitter and I respected you for that.

I pray that your soul rest in eternal peace and that God be with you till we meet again. Catherine Mabe Manku Maduwane
I will always love and miss you.

Yours always

Nokuthula Thuli Tshili

 

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2014 Oct. 31 South Africa mourns three athletes

Text by Lebo ‘Leptie’ Phume
Photos by Lindeka Qampi & Zanele Muholi

For the past few days I have been shadowing Zanele Muholi and Lindeka Qampi while they do follow up’s of Faces and Phases series. 

On October 30 we made a detour and attended the memorial service of Bafana-Bafana and Orlando Pirates Football Club captain Senzo ‘Nzori’ Meyiwa, South African record holder in athletics Mbulaeni ‘Silver bullet’ Mulaudzi and junior middleweight boxer Phindile ‘Zulu girl’ Mwelase.

In our arrival at the Standard Bank Arena it was full to capacity, I was humbled by the attendance of the community. It was rather embarrassing that Mamelodi Sundowns Football Club players and technical staff were more visible than Senzo’s team. It bothered me why they were not present at the service, only the former captain Lucky Lekgwathi sat next to Senzo’s injured “arch rival” captain of Kaizer Chiefs FC Itumeleng Khune.

The service was for three athletes yet it felt like it was only for Senzo. He was portrayed as a South African hero; to me he has not done much for the country besides his superb performances in his last four matches with Bafana-Bafana. What saddens me is that Mulaudzi was less recognized while he archived more than the two athletes.

His first global medal was a silver medal in 2000 African Championship, bronze in 2003 World Championships which followed a year after he won gold in 2002 Commonwealth Games, silver in 2003-07 All-Africa Games, gold medallist in 2004 IAAF World Indoor Championships. He went on to win two silver medals in 2006-08, runner up at the continental level on three occasions, he was a flag barrier for his native country at the opening ceremony of the 2004 Summer Olympics where he became a silver medallist.
During 2006-07 seasons he ranked first on time becoming the first black South African to achieve such feat.

All of his achievements were not mentioned in his one page shortcut obituary, while Senzo got a two page spread that includes his football history, fact files to his four clean sheets for Bafana that seem to be more important and his family life. I hate to compare the two but it is hard not to when the obituary was not written in an equal manner.

2014 Oct. 30 Mr Meyiwa in tears_4181Mr Sam Meyiwa, the father of the murdered Senzo Meyiwa could not contain his tears at the joint memorial service of the SA three athletes …

2014 Oct. 30 Mr & Mrs Meyiwa_3984Mr and Mrs Meyiwa who came all the way from Durban to attend the memorial service of their son…

In my opinion this was a Senzo Meyiwa show, he has been a centre of attention since he has killed that Sunday evening and less on the other athletes whose deaths were as tragic.

There are other footballers that have lost their lives tragically and they didn’t receive as much attention from the media or the South African Football Association (SAFA). Not to a point where a statue will be build using firearms and be erected outside SAFA house. I do not think he deserve that, they might as well collect scrapped cars and build statues for all the football players who lost their lives in car accidents like Leslie Manyathela, Oscar Ntwagae and Gift Leremi just to name few.

An amount of R250 000 is offered as a reward to anyone who will help the South African Police Services (SAPS) to put the killers behind bars yet lesbian women get killed and not even R1000 will be offered to catch the killers. It shows in this country women will never be taken seriously. If only such efforts and dedication was applied to every case no matter how small or big it is, our country would be a safer place for everyone.

I do not want to blame my ignorance on the fact that I did not know anything about Phindile Mwelase, even though I am an athlete. I never knew when she was admitted in hospital just heard of her death. Even during the memorial service not much was said about her.

She started boxing in 2007 and turned professional in 2012 as a junior middleweight boxer and ranked second in her department. She fought in six paid professional fights where she lost five and drew one. Phindile is the first female boxer in South Africa to pass away as a result of an unfortunate defeat in the ring.

My deepest condolences to the friends and families of Senzo Meyiwa, Mbulaeni Mulaudzi and Phindile Mwelase.

2014 Oct. 30 Winnie Mandela @ Memorial_4018Winnie Madikizela-Mandela (centred) by a friend and daughter on the right ‘was there to give support to the grieving families…

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2014 Oct. 31: Mbokodo awards honor the first ladies of our heritage

Text by Lerato Dumse
Photos by Lindeka Qampi

Stilettos, evening dresses, shiny accessories, fresh hairdos, make up and tuxedos were the order of the night, during the third annual Mbokodo Awards.

The event took place  on October 24 at The Theatre on the Track, in Kyalami Midrand, under the theme, 20 Years of Free Artistic Expression.

Amongst the dignitaries who attended the awards were South African First Lady Dr Bongi Ngema-Zuma and Minister in the Presidency Jeff Radebe.
Mbokodo opening with Napo_2322Great performance at the opening of the 2014 Mbokodo awards…
featuring Siphokazi, Judith, Napo…

Dr Bongi Ngema-Zuma_2334Our first lady, giving a special address in support of Mbokodos…

Ngema-Zuma was given a tribute from the Mbokodo awards, which she is said to have supported since its inception.
The First Lady described the Mbokodo award recipients as “the first ladies of our heritage.”

While Carol Bouwer, executive producer of the awards, said in a statement that the awards recognize the contribution that South Africans continue to make in the arts, culture and heritage sector.

Carol Bouwer and Sicka Star-ban...

Carol Bouwer and Sicka Star-ban… 

She went on to say women have always been in the forefront of SAs arts and culture landscape, despite losing accolades to their male counterparts.

The adjudication committee consists of heavy names such as Prof. Pitika Ntuli, Shado Twala, Antoinette Ntuli and Lisa Combrink.

In an interview Carol says if you want to find those most deserving of the Mbokodo award it entails going out and finding suitable candidates.

She also conceded that lack of access prevents many from entering the arts, because “the scales have not leveled in South Africa.”

Judging by all the health benefits attributed to laughing, it is safe to say the audience left the theatre healthier thanks to all the laughter induced by Anele Mdoda with her sense of humor.

Our stunning presenters Dineo & Anele...

Our stunning presenters Dineo & Anele…

She was the MC for the evening alongside the incredibly beautiful and sexy Dineo Moeketsi. The pair displayed their talent in presenting and there was no dull moment with them on stage added by their different outfits that ceased to amaze.

The all female performance lineup from dancers to singers also highlighted the rich talent pool available in our country.
The winners showed genuine appreciation for their award, and surprisingly all managed to keep their acceptance speeches short and to the point.
Mmatshilo Motsei_2374

Mmatshilo Motsei received the creative writing award, and shared some words of wisdom with fellow writers. She said, “Ben Okri says writers are dangerous when they tell the truth, he also says they are dangerous when they tell lies. To all the writers in the room, tell the truth. Do not worry about what is going to happen to you, even when you get stripped off you will be ok, I know.”

Occupying the front row seat, Marlene Le Roux negotiated her way to the stage with her leg brace and proclaimed that she stands for so many woman who are sometimes so invisible, such as rural women and women with disabilities who are often ignored. She appealed to everybody to look at those marginalized in communities.

marlene le roux_2737Marlene, the first South African woman with a disability to win a Mbokodo award…
She then ululated and shouted Amandla throwing her fist in the air, before walking off stage.

“This is the first time the industry has honored me in this country” were the emotionally heartfelt words of Florence Masebe, echoed by many of the other Mbokodo award recipients.

Florence took home the women in film award, nominated alongside Lillian Dube and Harriet Gavshon.

After singing a song calling for an end to femicide and domestic abuse, Nhlanhla Nciza who won in the music category, spoke about losing her aunt to domestic violence and added, “enough is enough beautiful South Africans.”

While in her acceptance speech for her award in the category, promotion of arts in the media, Vanessa Perumal said the committee made a decision that gives hope to 1.9 billion people, 54 countries and one continent. “If we don’t share African narratives, use the media to inform change, the whole world will think we are slaves and inherit all our money and take it away.”

The Miriam Makeba Lifetime Achievement Award was given to a trio that has invested the last 50 Years to entertaining South Africans and global audiences. Mahotella Queens were given a standing ovation when they made their way on stage.

Main winners of the 2014 Mbokodo awards were Mahotella Queens...

Main winners of the 2014 Mbokodo awards were Mahotella Queens…

The women who are in their 70s reminisced about their starting days while still in their 20s.

If there was a prize for best award presenter at the Mbokodo awards, then Brenda Ngxoli would be most deserving, as she left the audience in stiches, with her humor as well as her modeling attempt.

Apart from the stage that could not accommodate some people with disabilities, and a few award presenters who were reading from the autocue like they were reciting, I kept clapping my hands and was filled with excitement, for so many of the deserving artists.

With the award ceremony concluded, it was time to get the party started.
The event was attended by many mature people, and the Dj had that in mind playing old school hits that kept people on their feet and dancing, including the first lady.

SA Dreamgirls performing @ Mbokodo 2014_2470SA Dreamgirls in action…

2014 Winners in the different categories are as follows:

Women in Indigenous Art: Lobolile Ximba
Promotion of Language and Story Telling: Antjie Krog
Creative Writing: Mmatshilo Motsei
Poetry: Nokuthula Zuma
Creative Photography: Marlene Neumann
Painting: Tracey Rose
Sculpture: Jane Alexander
Architecture: Trudi Groenewald and Debbie Preller
Creative Design: Lisebo Mokhesi
Fashion Design and Innovation: Palesa Mokubung
Dance: Burnise Silvius
Opera: Sibongile Mngoma
Theatre: Marlene Le Roux
Women In Jazz: Lindiwe Maxolo
Music: Nhlanhla Nciza
Promotion of Arts in the Media: Vanessa Perumal
Arts Ambassador: Miriam Tlali
Women in Film: Florence Masebe
Comedy: Celeste Ntuli
Miriam Makeba Achievement Award: Mahotella Queens

Senzeni Muholi_9069

Senzeni Mthwakazi Marasela and the previous winner of 2013 Mbokodo award (Photography) Zanele Muholi were there representing invisible women like domestic workers…

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