2013 Oct. 29: A Response to “Frustrations of a transgender man (2013 October 13)

As Transgender and Intersex (TIA) we have decided to respond to an article that appeared on the Inkanyiso website on the 13th of October 2013 titled “Frustrations of a transgender man”.

The reason for the response is because we felt that as a transgender and intersex organisation, we are clearly implicated in the article.
The article clearly expressed the challenges that are faced by most transgender people in South Africa, especially those that are based in townships and rural areas.

In this response we will try to make a few points clear about how the organisation works and explain the state of transgender health care in South Africa.

In early 2013, we conducted a Needs Assessment report from the six provinces that we serve in South Africa; Gauteng, North West, Limpopo, Mpumalanga, Kwa-Zulu Natal and the Free State province.
From the report we realized that 67% of our constituents are unemployed, that is quite a high number considering the fact that we have over 520 transgender and intersex constituents as an organisation.
These are people who need access to health care, assistance with their Identity documents or psycho-social support.
Because of the high unemployment rate, most of them are completely dependent on public health care; the problem becomes even bigger considering the fact that only two public hospitals in Gauteng can cater to some degree for the needs of the trans* population; Steve Biko Academic Hospital and Chris Hani Baragwanath Hospital, the only other hospital that has done great work in terms of trans* health care is Groote Schuur in Cape Town.
Unfortunately in terms of surgeries for transsexual patients, Steve Biko only takes up about four new state subsidised trans* patient per year and Baragwanath does between 6 to 8 state subsidised surgeries per year.

This means with all the people we have on database, only 10-12 actually receive surgeries per year as they cannot afford private health care.
We constantly refer our constituents to these two hospitals and have even started a close working relationship with Baragwanath, unfortunately the hospitals can take you in as a patient for a psychologist’s diagnosis and for a few sessions with the psychologist, but in most cases that’s the most they can do, as the waiting lists for seeing an endocrinologist or surgeon are usually very long at these hospitals.

Additionally the Groote Schuur Hospital (GSH) is committed to 4 surgeries per year, and with the huge amount of visibility created over the years about trans* in SA, the GSH waiting list is at this point 26 years long!

This is the bleak picture of trans* healthcare in South Africa, there are no hospitals in two thirds of the country that adequately cater for the needs of trans* patients, as a result most of our constituents usually travel monthly from their provinces to Gauteng in order to access some degree of healthcare, some of them have even migrated to Pretoria or Johannesburg for healthcare.

Trans* healthcare in this country is expensive, you lose so much in the pursuit of healthcare, you lose your money, sometimes you lose relationships with your family and friends and sometimes you lose your life while waiting for healthcare. If you really want to transition using the public health system, you must be prepared for long and difficult process, healthcare for transitioning will not come to you, you have to fight for it, you need patience and perseverance, that is why we have support groups in Pretoria, Johannesburg and Mpumalanga for trans* people, because we understand that this can be a very frustrating journey.

The problem with our community is that they almost don’t understand that as an organisation the best we can do is offer assistance to you by referring you to a hospital, tracking your case and intervening when the hospital does not treat you well and offering psycho-social support.
But we cannot guarantee that you will get the surgery you seek at the time that you want, this can be a very long process, and you need to work with us.
That is why when people ask for referral letter from us, we ask them to come to the office because we cannot give a referral letter that we have signed and clearly bears the letter head of the organisation to a person we have never met or interviewed.

If the constituent says they do not have the bus fare to come to us, sometimes we assist when we have the funding and sometimes we tell them they will come to us when they have enough money to do so or they can wait for the time when we have an outreach activity in their province.
This is a struggle that we all have had to undergo as trans* and intersex people form disadvantaged backgrounds. The Director of TIA, Tebogo Nkoana had to leave his family and friends and move to Cape Town as a 19 year old in order to get his transition.
He had to work once he got to Cape Town in order to meet his daily needs as his family couldn’t afford to send him money.
Our Advocacy coordinator had to move from the North West and move to Pretoria for health care.
We have all made sacrifices to get where we are, and we are still struggling with access to health care. This should not be the case in a democratic state, but unfortunately that is how things are at the moment and until the time when our health care system prioritises trans* and intersex health care.
We are going to need a whole lot of perseverance and unity.

The struggle for the right to healthcare for trans* persons is not a battle that we can fight alone.  We need the trans* community to come on board.
This is not a struggle that TIA and Gender DynamiX can fight alone.

The biggest problem that we have at the moment is the lack of the trans* community’s interest in organising and owning their movement.
It is very common for trans* people to request assistance from us but when we need assistance from them in terms of organising or needing information through surveys very few of them actually take part.
All three of the trans* organisations in the country are actually very small in terms of staff numbers, as TIA we have only four permanent staff members and because of a lack in funding only two of the staff members are paid. As a result, we cannot afford to subsidise or fund anyone’s medical assistance when our own staff members can’t even afford to pay rent.

Trans* organisational funding is one of the biggest problems at the moment, most of us don’t even know if our organisations will still exist in the coming year as funding is very difficult to come by. Adding the total number of staff members at TIA and Gender DynamiX equals to 9 people.  We cannot expect 9 people to lead and take charge of a trans* movement that includes thousands of trans* people.
We all need to own the movement and be the change we want to see in the world.

In order to serve the trans* and intersex people based in provinces outside of Gauteng, we conduct outreach activities. We visit these provinces with the intent of getting in touch with the trans* and intersex people in these provinces, sensitising service providers and collecting data that can be used for advocacy. In fact, in the coming two months, we will be conducting outreach activities in the North West, Mpumalanga and Limpopo in collaboration with Gender DynamiX.
We ask the trans* and intersex community to attend these activities and events so that we can figure out how to organise and bring about a change in our country in terms of transgender and intersex human rights.
In most cases when we organise these activities only a few trans* people attend even though we do our best to inform them a long time in advance.

We cannot reiterate any further that this is a struggle.
A struggle we will all have to take part in, we might not see the results immediately but we will definitely see them in the future.
The trans* movement has made great strides in the past few years considering how small it is.
It is time that we united and forced government to prioritise trans* health care because regardless of gender identity or expression, we are also citizens of this country who deserve health care and full human rights like anyone else.

Aluta Continua.

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2013 Oct. 16: Stars Shining Bright

by Zandile Makhubu

It’s Wednesday evening and the whole Inkanyiso crew is out and about attending the Out in Africa (OIA) Film Festival at NuMetro Cinema, Hyde Park Mall, Johannesburg.
The Out In Africa, South African Film Festival is an LGBTQI social event established in 1994.
Its inception was inspired by the South African Constitution tackling equality in our country on the subject of discrimination on the basis of sexual and gender discrimination.

As we all wait outside the cinema, greeting friends, colleagues and associates, it is amazing how far we have come as the LGBTQI community, supporting each other in all facets of our lives. The gathering is interesting as there are different talks centered on calls for debates, predicting what’s in store for the audience, etc.

After we are seated, we are greeted by an amazing woman, the speaker for the night the wonderful director of OIA, Nodi Murphy, who delivers a great start to the evening that promises to be full of surprises.
She tells us of the present LGBQTI organisations that have come out to support the Film Festival such as GALA, OC, JHB People’s Pride, Sisonke Gender Justice, Health For Men, Iranti.org, Gay Umbrella and our very own Inkanyiso Productions, just to mention a few.

What is special about this year’s OIA Film Festival opening night is that only South African films are being showcased. This was a first and it was refreshing to see the raw talent and the not so fortunate in the acting department, just saying.

First up on the carte du jour – my personal favourite – a short film “The Brave Unseen” directed by Duan Myburgh, shot in 2012.
The film is a gripping tale about a young newly trained and inducted policewoman, Grace, who is finding her purpose in the world as a lesbian.  We go on a journey with her as we see her living with her mother and sibling, the struggles she faced and she tugged at our hearts.
The film confronts the ever-growing concern regarding ‘corrective rape’ in South Africa and how it affects mostly the Black Lesbian community in townships around the country.

The film takes an unexpected turn, when Grace falls in love with a white woman, Emma, a colleague who works as a social worker.
She is also trying to win a case against the local criminal who is on a quest to “heal” the lesbians of the community.
Typically case dockets are missing and are nowhere to be found, the only chance to put the criminal in jail.
The two soon get entangled in the love scene and are yet to be faced with their worst fear when Emma, is brutally raped and killed by the local gang. Forced to face them, Grace embarks on a journey of justice to put the offenders behind bars.

The second motion picture is about acceptance and the fear of rejection. Mkhonto AKA MK is about a young “man” being initiated so that his father can accept him as a man. It’s an eccentric cast, flamboyant MK is visible as the crowd is immediately drawn to him, and it’s rare that you see such gaudiness in an initiation school, the irony in that is amusing.  Friendships are made and we see the true nature of what it is to truly to be a man.
The vision of the Oko Macanda, director of this feature, is well played out by the actors, it shows us that the norms of the world and how we are expected to behave because of what’s under our underwear, and that is not always the case.

Lastly, a less intense film, brought to us by Benedicte Roumega, a 25 minutes of pure fun, laughter, wit, and unimaginable circumstances that we’re often faced with and frequently don’t know how to deal with them.  Based on a true story, we are shown struggling business owners are on the verge of bankruptcy.
Ryan and Roland are forced to make ends meet as their salon is struggling to produce revenue and attract customers.

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The foyer at the NuMetro cinema where the opening took place.
Photo by Xana Nyilenda

Enchanted by the magic world, they decide to uplift their salon by putting out the bad energy and in with the fresh, but be careful what you wish for because it may just come true.  The featured films all have their various messages and different routes to portray such, but one thing in common about them is that there is a mutual purpose, the fight and awareness of the LGBTQI community as a whole.  The unity we have we’ll surely get us somewhere, the small progress is yet to be celebrated with time and patience, the world we’ll see us as one.

“We have the Constitution, no one can take that away from us.”
– Justice Edwin Cameron.

Peace and Love

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2013 Feb. 14: Hello, my name is Zandile, and I am in love with a woman


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2013 Oct. 27: fo(u)nd

A Public Service Announcement (PSA) to end hate crimes in South Africa. It is an activist/ artist’s direct response to the epidemic of ‘curative rapes’ and murders of black lesbians in SA today. Video archive. Captured with Canon 60D camera … Continue reading

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2013 Oct. 26: Last week-end I Frieze(d) in London

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When:    17 – 20 October 2013

Where:  Regent’s Park,London, UK

 

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Frieze Talks

Sexuality, Politics and Protest
It has been 20 years since ACT UP, Gran Fury and queer activism reshaped the power of contemporary art and protest. What is the legacy of and possibility for art and protest now?

Neil Bartlett (Theatre Director, Author and Performer, Brighton)

Marlene McCarty (Artist, New York)

Zanele Muholi (Photographer, Johannesburg)

Chair: Jennifer Kabat (Writer, New York)

 

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2013 Oct. 25: Black Lesbian French artist paints Mandela

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Nelson Mandela’s portrait by Pauline N

My name is Pauline N’Gouala, I’m 27 and I live in Paris.

I am an artist who likes to use art as a mirror.
I am a fraternal twin and as a child I thought that everyone had the same set of circumstances!
Being a twin made me aware of my own identity very early because I was always being compared to my sister, who is very different physically and mentally speaking.

I started drawing when I was 7 and my first “models” were cartoon characters from my favourite comics.  You can still see the influence in the way I draw today.  I did not attend an institution for art but my mum nurtured my skills and bought me different kinds of materials to further explore.
At 12, I drew my sister’s profile.  She was my first human model.
Despite being surrounded by loved ones and getting the support that one needs, life can still be lonely.  That is part of our conditioning.
Thus painting is like meditation. Not necessarily spiritual but gives me quietness.

In junior and high school I did not get much exposure to influential black leaders.
I discovered the black leaders mostly through reggae music instead of school.
I introduced Chinese ink to my art in 2000.
I made posters to express this identity that did not exist/lacked in my history books back in high school.
In 2011, I commissioned my first black and white oil portrait of Frantz Fanon.

Frantz Fanon (Frantz Omar Fanon, 20 July 1925 – 6 December 1961) was a Martinique-born, French Creole psychiatrist, philosopher, revolutionary, and writer...

Frantz Fanon (Frantz Omar Fanon, 20 July 1925 – 6 December 1961) was a Martinique-born, French Creole psychiatrist, philosopher, revolutionary, and writer…

It is up to us to speak about ourselves while shining the spotlight on French history and especially the French colonial past, as it is not widely known in France.  This just breeds more racism that continues to get more and more complex in the community.
I drew my influence from the essay” black skin, white mask”, which was written in the 50s but it very much relevant in our this day and age.

Love led me to oil paint.   My ex encouraged me after seeing a portrait I had made in ink.  I followed her instinct and never stopped.  That was 2 years ago. The insight she gave me allowed me to get more confident and after 3 or 4 paintings, I had found a style that I finally stuck to.

Visual arts especially painting really changed my life. I never thought that it could be such a huge part of me. Just like my sexuality, I did not need to label it before.  I believe that is the way in which I express my humanity, that despite our differences we are really all the same. When I approach my paintings eyes are my starting point followed by the rest of the face.

Early in 2012, I created a whole series and it was a collaboration between
DJ – a poet/writer – and I. The first was Basquiat’s portrait.
She wrote an extract from “chaos” on the first wall that I painted as a background.   Since it worked, we stuck with that method.  DJ wrote “Solitude” on Billie Holiday’s portrait and I also illustrated her poem “Strange Fruit”.  We named our work “To see eye to eye.”

My family and friends supported me a lot and am grateful to them because I managed to organize four exhibitions in one year.
The last two last shows were in Paris, which was quite a nice experience and opportunity because it is the biggest city in France.
It was even more significant because the City of Paris supported my work. 
It was also really a great to share with large audiences. Some people wondered why I painted brick walls in the background but I let them interpret it according to their realities.

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Busi Sigasa (2013) by Pauline

Buhle by Pauline_4345

Buhle Msibi (2013) by Pauline

Latest paintings of Busi & Buhle

I was very moved by the stories of Busi Sigasa & Buhle Msibi when Zanele Muholi requested me to paint them.  The opportunity came by at a time when I wanted to focus my art on Human Rights related issues.  Their commemoration gave me an answer to a crucial issue.  I was very willing to be part of the project neither as an African nor a lesbian but just as a human being, an artist.
I threw my whole being into this work.

I am so passionate about my work that sometimes I wonder whether I am bordering on sin.   I believe in God and sometimes I wonder if I’m in the right path, since passion can be read as a sin.   I wonder if I am supposed to sacrifice my art as proof of my faith or see my skills as a gift from God and therefore a tool, a weapon to fight at my own level.

Painting is what allows me to feel alive.  It is more about letting the pain, the anxiety and negative feelings out in a positive manner, using my brushes and sometimes expressing it through the eyes of the models.   The viewer is given a chance see all the oppositions on paintings, color, shape and contrasts in harmony together and it makes me feel balanced, happy and accomplished.

Why Mandela’s portrait?

My friend Sebastien Onomo commissioned Nelson’s Mandela portrait after seeing my first show in October 2012.
I chose a picture taken before Mandela was put in jail.
A way to remember that its part of his youth that was sacrificed early in the struggle for freedom. The portrait is in oil and the background is in acrylic bomb.
I was selected for a contest which happened in late September in the western suburb of France.

Jean-Michel Basquiat (December 22, 1960 – August 12, 1988) was an American artist.

Jean-Michel Basquiat (December 22, 1960 – August 12, 1988) was an American artist.

I chose the Jean-Michel’s Basquiat portrait and the winners will show their piece in Grand-Palais for the Autumn Salon and we will see the results in October.

I am currently working on Baldwin’s portrait commission by a friend, Keira Maameri.
I also started a Prince’s portrait in a series where I would like to underline the so called gender ambiguity.
Sadly because there are many victims, Buhle and Busi’s portraits belong to a series that is still to come, a tribute to homophobic murders victims in South Africa, first collaboration with Zanele Muholi.

Why I stand on Busi and Buhle’s shoulders

I was wondering how I could address them considering the tragic circumstances. I felt their shoulders were
a good part.
 It reminds me of a ritual at the end of a prayer, where  you turn your face right and left to send a peace salutation of  “A Salam Aleycoum” to your Djins, spiritual beings in Islam.
When I was painting I became one with them.  It occurred to me that it could have be me.
It happens in so many countries even in France too.  No one is safe from homophobic hate crimes.

Even when we have these laws, it is important to be aware that the struggle continues and never forget that it could happen to any of us even though we think we are protected.
So I thank the Lord that I am here, expressing a dream of peace in my own way.

In the future I plan to be everywhere, exhibiting and sharing. It’s true that I will be happy to exhibit in the US in the future.
 I will also be happy to work and show in South Africa.
I am trying to work on a collaboration for next year.

My philosophy it’s to follow my instinct.

 

 

Pauline N’Gouala

www.paulinengouala.canalblog.com

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2013 Oct. 24: Black, Proud & Out and Deaf

Sorita interviewed by Rene Mathibe & Xana Nyilenda

Featuring photos from Sorita’s facebook page.

Sorita Main

Sorita Dlamini was born and raised in KwaThema, Springs, Johannesburg.
She is a 24 year old female and is an older sibling to her 6 year old sister and 10 month old brother and currently lives with her mother.
At a stage in her life, approximately from 2008-2010, she moved to Rusternburg situated in the North Western province to attend North West Secondary School for The Deaf as a boarder.
Subsequently she then moved back to Johannesburg where she is currently studying Adult Basic Education (Abet) in English and Computer Studies, Braamfontein, Johannesburg.

Sorita is an out and proud lesbian who identifies herself as a “femme” and she is deaf. Although she has come out to her mother, the rest of her (hearing) family does not know about her sexual orientation. Her experience as a lesbian living in KwaThema has been a pretty straight forward one, in that with all the killings of lesbians coupled with the general mistreating of homosexuals.
She has managed to lead a reasonably simple and quiet life, not to say she completely detached herself from all that is going on around her neighbourhood.

Sorita 2Sorita is a very social individual who enjoys interacting with people in general.

She mentioned that those who have come to cross paths with her have told her she has a great sense of humour.

It might seem strange to hearing people for deaf a person to say they have a great sense of humour, but get to know her and you’ll find out.
I have a few hearing friends but, most of my friends are deaf”,
 said Sorita.

This is because she finds it a lot easier to communicate with those who are deaf over hearing people.”

Sorita 3

Being around hearing people who cannot sign tends to be challenging at times. For an example when I’m around hearing people I find it difficult to fully express myself”, she explained. Sorita is always eager and enthusiastic in teaching sign language. At times she gets a sense that they might be disinterested or that they find it hard to learn.
Despite that hindrance, it has not deterred her from educating others about sign language.

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She is almost certain that there are those who are reading this and are questioning how difficult it is to be leading the life of a deaf lesbian. Since she has already shared a bit about the deaf side of her – which isn’t all there is to being Sorita. She is an aspiring model and fashion designer, who is passionate about all that is vintage, from clothes, shoes, hair the works.
Anything old school. She says that can be serious at times but she loves to let her hair down and go out dancing and partying with friends. So in many ways she’s a lot like everybody else.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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2013 Oct. 20: Deafened by my own ignorance

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2013 Oct. 24: Jack Daniel’s

 

by S’bu Kheswa

Yehla ngomgogodlo!
Triple distilled and twice as smooth!  It has been very long since I enjoyed my favourite drink.
When one is on some weight-watching tip one misses out on goodies but once in a while you bend down the Ola freezer and come back with Magnum – Death by chocolate.
They call it cheating I call it enjoying the goodness of life. This Saturday when I visit my mom’s house I will leave my calorie-counting attitude at the gate, if I am lucky I will enjoy her culinary skills.
I will take advantage of her good mood as Pirates will be whipping Chiefs and ask her for the meaning of the word heteronormartivity. I can almost hear her struggling to pronounce the word, let alone attempting to give meaning.

Many lesbians are ex-straights. Some of them even have children from those relationships and some were even married and sadly today some live with HIV. This is understandable given that we live in a heteronormative society.
My friend once told me her mom asked “my child, how can you be a lesbian when you have such beautiful legs” I sit here and marvel at the courage these lesbians had to plug to pursue their truths. I can only imagine the price they had to pay and continue to pay just to live honestly and hopefully happier.

I think our society does not appreciate sexual diversity or even diversity in general. To some extent we all want everyone to be like us and should you differ we are ready to mete out punishment. That punishment is package differently for different people, foreign nationals suffer xenophobia, sex workers suffer all kinds of verbal and physical abuse from all corners of our society and lesbians suffer rapes, assaults and recently a spike of murders. I still can’t get it, one is a survivor of xenophobic attacks but he is openly homophobic.  I would expect members of targeted groups to be more accepting of people who are different.

In my line of work there is a bit of preoccupation with terminology. Recently I learnt a strange word homonormativity.  Most people in the LGBTI community can’t stand heteronormativity but to my surprise they are perpetuators of homonormativity. I think heteronormativity and homonormativity are equally problematic. It is equally offensive when LGBTI people assume that every LGBTI person is homosexual, or even to believe that homosexuality is the norm or it is the only acceptable way of being.  Ignorance and transphobia buttress homonormativity and the levels of intolerance that we experience within the LGBTI community. Like my friend’s mom, LGBTI people ask “but she had DD breasts…”

We need to start embracing gender diversity that exists within the LGBTI community. We should welcome and respect ex-homosexuals just like we did with ex-straights.  I believe ex-straights were never straight in the first place. They were homosexuals who circumstantially lived a straight life. So are the ex-homosexuals. Many transgender and transsexuals identify as homosexuals until they plug enough courage to live their truths.

I am also perplexed by the limited understanding of gender even amongst gender activists. I can fully understand that there are people who take the lesbian identity for political reasons.
Being transgender or transsexual is apolitical, though some folk choose to keep the trans identity for political reasons.  These are just psychological conditions that are can be treated biologically.  It is a shame we live in a patriarchal society because those of us who choose to align our minds and our bodies become beneficiaries of the system.

To make you happy I could tell you, those people who think because you were born ‘female’ you should be ‘woman’ must be referred to us so that they can see no one should be anything because of the ‘sex’ they were born with. As female born person you should be able to live your life as you wish and nobody should box you into a gender. Those people who believe masculinity or manhood is God-given, the highest thing that can never be attained, tell them that there are people like me who mastered it in no time at all (wink-wink).
If you don’t like this whole piece blame it on Jack Daniel’s.

 

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2013 Oct. 18: Transition is in your hands

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2013 Oct. 23: Photo of the Day

2013 Oct. 23:    Photo of the Day

Candice & Christina @ 2013 Soweto Pride by Xana Nyilenda

 

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2013 Oct. 22: I thought university was for the rich

Palesa profiled by Kopano

Palesa Mkhwebane is a beauty with a brain. The aspiring entrepreneur tells me of her future plans as we chit chat.  She ponders and says “I didn’t know I was going to go to university, as I thought going to university was for the rich”.  It’s now a ridiculous thought as she laughs and adds that she honestly thought that to be true until she got access to information around that.

After she matriculated, she took a gap year as she figured out her options.  The gap year came as a blessing to her as she got the opportunity to work with school children at the request of her former teacher.
“I got good results in matric and my teacher asked me to come motivate and tutor the learners because I was good in Maths.  That is where I discovered my calling to be an educator.”

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Palesa Mkhwebane, photo taken outside KwaThema Community Hall, Springs, Johannesburg, 2011.
Featuring in Faces & Phases by Zanele Muholi

Palesa went on to win a bursary because of her excellent results, which so far, has covered her tuition and her mom has not had to worry about her school needs.
“When I start working I want to extend my mother’s house” she said. she also mentions that she’s lived all her life in an informal settlement and it’s only been two years since they started living in an Reconstruction and Development Programme (RDP) house, she also explains that she feels that her mother deserves the best, “I feel like I owe it to myself to do better for my mom” she added.

Palesa has already gained her teaching experience through her practicums.  She has taught high schools and she says “I love teaching! I’m so confident when I’m teaching”. She however says teaching is demanding and it requires a person with passion and patience.  She is an educator and she sees herself teaching for about 8 years.  After that, she plans on furthering her studies so that she can secure a position as a Principal or be working in some capacity at the department of education.  After that she plans on working on her entrepreneurial dream – she would like to run a successful student residence.

With all good things comes the bad.  Her experiences at her first practicum were at Phoenix College.  Her assigned mentor at the school had a problem with her sexuality. “She firstly invited me to church and when I told her I couldn’t make it because I’m Roman Catholic, told me she couldn’t be my mentor and by then I could sense a huge discomfort every time she spoke to me.” The mentor even discussed her with the students and when Palesa found out, she took the matter to the Deputy Principal, who advised that she take the matter up with law enforcement.

She declined but says what happened to her was a learning opportunity for her, because she was able to see a gap as pertains to educating students about homosexuality, which she had never thought of previously.  One of her courses is Life Orientation which help her with addressing subjects around gender roles, lifestyle choices and sexuality.

The 23 year old just got engaged to her girlfriend Palesa Mlangeni who she’s been in a relationship with since 2011. “I want to spend the rest of my life with her” she professes. She doesn’t think she’s too young to get married because she seems to understand one tenet – that succumbing to temptation is a futile exercise.  “The truth always has a way of coming out.”
She concedes that yes she knows there will always be women far more beautiful than her girlfriend but “they can never give me what she gives me.”
She says that when you respect someone and you love that person you will never want to see that particular individual hurt.

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Definitions according to the dictionary…

* practicum

A practicum is a graduate level course, often in a specialized field of study, that is designed to give students supervised practical application of a previously or concurrently studied theory. Practicums (student teaching) are common for education and social work majors. In some cases, the practicum may be a part-time student teaching placement that occurs the semester before a student’s full-time student teaching placement.

* tenet

noun

the fundamental tenet of the ideology: principle, belief, doctrine, precept, creed, credo, article of faith, axiom, dogma, canon; theory, thesis, premise, conviction, idea, view, opinion, position; (tenets) ideology, code of belief, teaching(s).

 


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2013 Sept. 22: Stop this is hurting me…

 

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2013 Aug. 13: Love Transcends and Love Prevails

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2013 July 15: The virus has become a silent relative


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2013 April 21: Living a legacy is always better than leaving a legacy

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2013 April 16: Not just a handsome butch lesbian

 

 

 

 

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2013 Oct. 20: Deafened by my own ignorance

 

by Maureen Velile Majola

I got home at 6:00 as usual, and was excited to see the beautiful Sorita. I quickly said hello with no response.  But of course, Sorita is black deaf lesbian and she couldn’t hear a word I was saying.
I said hello in sign language and she smiled at the effort I made.
I started speaking to Charmain and Xana, asking them questions about Sorita.
Then I realized that it was stupid of me not to ask her all these questions.
I started writing questions down for her and asked her to sign everything to me.
We started having a conversation in sign language.

I asked her to teach me how to sign my name, which was so hard for me but I learned it after a few repetitions.
We then proceeded to learning how to say What, When, Why, Where and How.
These are the words one uses all the time and it’s the basis of learning sign language.

As she was teaching me I was signing to the group telling them what I was saying and Charmain started practicing with me, as both of us had never been in close proximity with a deaf person before. We all found ourselves trying to communicate with her. I tried mumbling words so she could read my lips, then I realized my new friend could not read lips, she could only sign.

I felt a sense of guilt and started thinking.
Why can’t I SIGN?
How can I not know how to SIGN?
Why am I so selfish?
I can speak and comprehend 10 South African Languages and not speaking Afrikaans is a choice.
Now my guilt came from the thought that I Maureen Velile Majola, took an initiative to learn all the other languages but never had I thought of learning one more language that is not official – yet – which I believe should be made official. I never paid attention to learning how to sign, not because I was ignorant at the fact that one day I might find myself with a deaf person trying to communicate. I just didn’t see the importance of learning sign language.

In all honesty I believe hearing people are selfish.  I have been selfish in wanting deaf people to always read my lips because I’m too lazy to learn how to sign. With a population of 0.5% who use sign language as their 1st language, I believe it should form part of the school curriculum (because sign language is the only efficient way to communicate with a deaf person) and yes its 0.5% which might seem small to many but it’s this small percentage that is not spoiled for choice (since we can choose from 11 languages as to which ones do we use as a form of communication)

I took a look at my daily life and realized that everything is for hearing people. From the transportation we use, the TV series, music, a car hooter (which deaf people cannot hear). The shop assistant in all stores (they always speak to you without even thinking that some people can’t hear a word they saying) or that competition on TV that tells you how to enter without subtitles for those who can’t hear them.

Maureen Velile Majola traced

Maureen Velile Majola traced by Zanele Muholi (2013)

We (hearing people) always say “music feeds my soul” I wondered if deaf people feel the same way about it.
I thought to myself “if music heals me, if words spoken mean so much to me then what about deaf people?
Do they hold the same sentiments in words like I do, like we do?

I have been so selfish, wanting deaf people to write what they saying down for me so I can respond.
Ngidliwa isazelo!
Because I should know how to sign.
I should be able to communicate with deaf people without any difficulties. Here I am thinking about deaf people and seeing how we have all made this world seem as though it consists of hearing people and no one else.
How have I been so blind about this language, the only language deaf people can communicate with us in?
How have I been living, learning other languages and forgetting one crucial one.
Writing this is freeing my soul and mind from what was holding me back from writing anything in the past 3 months.
It took a moment of silence, a night with a deaf person and that morning walk to Braamfontein to get me writing again.
Who would have thought that silence can change so much.

 

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