2013 Nov. 10: I can never forget

by Maureen Velile Majola

 

That night you made me stay up
so you can pour out your heart

When you reminded me of all my mistakes
When the age gap played it significant role again

The reminder
The constant reminder
That I MUST know my place

The silence in your speech
That said so much more than your words

I can never forget that night
You held my hand so tight
Looked me in the eyes
and told me “Uyisifebe wena”

All because I didn’t wanna do everything you told me
Because I refused to play by your rules
Because I wanted a lover and not a possible mother

The memory of that day lives
It breathes
It speaks to me

I can never forget the longest bus ride to Jhb from nowhere
I don’t wanna forget the look on your face
The grip of your hand
The words

The WORDS
The WORDS

They still play out in my head
I can hear your voice telling me I’m a “BITCH”
For loving you
Giving you my all
Staying with you even when I wanted to leave
Enduring all the pain
That came with loving you

Seeing you on your terms
Needing you
Wanting you
Missing you
Caring for you

Holding back
From loving others
Because I believed in YOU
I believed in US
That never existed

I can never forget
How you looked at my food
The meal I prepared out of love
and you just look at it and say
“Awukwazi ukupheka”

You always found a way to make me feel stupid
and feel like I needed you to hold my hand
As I beat that egg in a glass
Pour the oil in the pen
and try frying it
Just as you like it

Oh how my love
My endless effort
Was like pouring water on a duck

I don’t ever wanna go down that road again

I can’t let my SOUL go through this again

I will never let anyone make me feel like trash

When I know I am Gold.

  

 

 

Previous by Maureen

2013 Nov. 6: Moving On To Only Stay Behind

and

2013 Oct. 20: Deafened by my own ignorance

and

2013 Aug. 26: Just one day


and

2013 Aug. 6: My body as a subject of hate crime

and

2013 July 20: I’ve lived with her for years

and

2013 July 7: Trouble Soul
and

2013 June 21: The Princess of Norway pitched just for Muholi
and

2013 June 4: My Only Man

and

2013 May 16: Don’t touch ME!

and

2012 March 20: There’s a strawberry garden between your legs

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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2013 Nov. 25 South Africa: Video on Gender Violence

According to HRW direct email distributed recently, the work …

Highlights Campaign; Documents Award-Winning Photographer’s Work

(Johannesburg, November 25, 2013) – Human Rights Watch today released a short film that explores the work of the award-winning South African photographer and activist Zanele Muholi to mark the 16 Days of Activism Against Gender Violence.
The campaign begins on November 25, 2013.

Muholi, who describes herself as a “visual activist,” has spent years documenting the lives of black lesbians and transgender people in South Africa.
“We live in fear,” Muholi said. “And what are we doing about it?
You have to document. You are forced to document.”

The film was made as a collaboration between Muholi and filmmakers Katherine Fairfax Wright and Malika Zouhali-Worrall – the directors of the award-winning documentary
“Call Me Kuchu,” which tells the story of the last year in the life of Ugandan Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, and Transgender (LGBT) activist David Kato.

The video is dedicated to the memory of Duduzile Zozo, who was brutally raped and murdered in Thokoza, Gauteng Province in South Africa on June 30, 2013.

“Zanele Muholi embodies the strength and resilience of a community that is particularly vulnerable to gender violence,” said Graeme Reid, director of the LGBT Rights Program at Human Rights Watch.

The 16 Days of Activism Against Gender Violence, a global campaign originating in 1991, provides an opportunity to show solidarity in the fight to end violence against women. South Africa has a high rate of gender-based violence. Despite the promise in the constitution of equality and non-discrimination on the basis of sexual orientation, hate-crimes against lesbians, including rape and murder, remain a scourge.

The 2011 Human Rights Watch report “We’ll Show You You’re a Woman,” based on interviews with more than 120 people, documented the abuses faced by black lesbians and transgender men, particularly in South Africa’s poorer townships. This is the context in which Muholi works tirelessly to document the lives of the people she photographs, Human Rights Watch said.

“If I wait for someone to validate my existence it will mean that I am shortchanging myself,” Muholi said. “You Google black lesbians in South Africa, you’ll see what you see there. There is nothing that focuses on same-sex love versus these hate crimes.”

In 2013, the National Intervention Task Team on Gender and Sexual-Orientation-Based Violence Perpetrated Against LGBTI Persons has made significant progress in setting up a monitoring system in South Africa to track cases of violence against LGBT people through the criminal justice system. But challenges remain in bringing those responsible for gender violence to justice, Human Rights Watch said.

Senior government officials, including South African President Jacob Zuma, should use the 16 Days of Activism Against Gender Violence to publicly condemn gender-based violence, including homophobic and transphobic violence, Human Rights Watch said. The top-level officials should ensure that those responsible for such violence are brought to justice.

Muholi won the Fine Prize for an emerging artist at the 2013 Carnegie International, at the Carnegie Museum of Art, in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania. Muholi was recently made honorary professor of the University of the Arts/Hochschule für Künste Bremen. She won the Index on Censorship – Freedom of Expression art award in London in March, and the Mbokodo Award for Creative Photography in August.
Muholi is also being honored with a prestigious Prince Claus Award, to be presented in Amsterdam on December 11.

“The significance of Muholi’s work is her ability to turn anger into creativity and insist on dignity and resilience in the face of hatred and violence,” Reid said.

To read the 2011 Human Rights Watch report, “‘We’ll Show You You’re a Woman’: Violence and Discrimination against Black Lesbians and Transgender Men in South Africa,” please visit:
http://www.hrw.org/reports/2011/12/05/we-ll-show-you-you-re-woman

For more Human Rights Watch reporting on LGBT rights, please visit:
http://www.hrw.org/topic/lgbt-rights

For more Human Rights Watch reporting on South Africa, please visit:
http://www.hrw.org/africa/south-africa

For more information, please contact:
In New York, Graeme Reid (English): +1-212-216-1288; or +1-203-606-5847 (mobile); or reidg@hrw.org
In Berlin, Boris Dittrich (German, English, Dutch): + 1-917-535-3863; or dittrib@hrw.org
In Nairobi, Monica Tabengwa (English): +254-707-181-717 (mobile); or tabengm@hrw.org
In Johannesburg, Tiseke Kasambala (English): +27-110-622-852; or +27-792-205-254; or kasambt@hrw.org

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2013 Nov. 23: Photo of the Day – 6 months later

2013 Nov. 23:   Photo of the Day - 6 months later

…. by Valerie Thomas

Where: Limpopo

What: A week before Vinny married Lele.

Featuring Penny, Nqobile, Xoli, Lele, Nomthandazo, Cindy…

Photo taken with Canon 60D, with 85mm lens

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2013 Nov. 19: Love is a beautiful thing

 

When you’re in love nothing else really matters.
Just you and the person you’re in love with.

I’m in love with a wonderful soul, a wonderful woman.
I have been in love before, but never like this.
Could it be because it’s with a woman?
Maybe.
I believe I’m a very difficult person to love, sometimes I wonder how she does it.
I’m one stubborn woman who finds it hard to love and be patient to see it through. But ever since I started dating her, things have changed.

I have learned the art of loving, loving without reservation.
I have learned to be patient, to fight for what I love and believe in.

Just as in any relationship, there are fights, we also disagree and fight at times.
But through it all we never forget how we feel about each other.
The love we share compels us to find the way back to each other.
You know the thing about love is that it makes you free, free to be who you really are – NO PRETENCE!

When I’m with her I can be myself, without any fear, without fearing what she thinks of me.
She has taught me to be free in love, to love without boundaries.
As a woman in a lesbian relationship, I used to battle to love a woman OPENLY.
She helped me realised that love has no gender, what’s important is that you are in love.

People have mentioned to me that I am glowing, I look happy and younger they say.
There’s something about being in love that becomes contagious.
I have seen my daughter open up and fall in love with my partner.
I have also seen my family warming up to her and loving her like one of their own.
Even though they don’t understand that we’re in a relationship, they still love her.
They have also admitted that I have become lighter, happier and more approachable.
If love brings such happiness to someone, then who could deny them that?

Yes, love surely is a wonderful thing and I can safely say I’m ready for the next level!!!

It has been said that
“LOVE IS A MENTAL ILLNESS” – and I agree…
I AM MADLY IN LOVE WITH Phumla Rose Masuku.

© Buli Vimbelela
2013

 

 

 

 

 

 

About the author

Buli is a caring mother to her lovely daughter and a lover to her partner.
In this creative piece she declares her love for Rose.
There are so many beautiful women like her but always find it hard to express their love for the same gender publicly with fear of being discriminated against.

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2013 Nov. 9: Ayanda & Nhlanhla’s wedding

 

2013 Nov. 9:   Ayanda & Nhlanhla's wedding

… Seven (7) days later

Photos by Lebo Ntladi

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It was in 2011 during their vacation in Cape Town when Nhlanhla Moremi made a promised to marry Ayanda Magoloza in 2 years. 2013 came and Moremi finished paying ilobolo to the Magoloza family.
On the 9th Nov. 2013 more than hundred friends and family members witnessed the best wedding of Ayanda & Nhlanhla at Kwanele Park, Katlehong.
The lovebirds’ union was blessed by Pastor Moema in front of both family elders. Nhlanhla’s mother expressed her love for Ayanda publicly which is a unique stance taken by any brave mother these days.

Today marks exactly 8 days since they were officially united in love.

 

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2013 June 15: The Durban Lesbian Wedding of the Year

and

Lesbians Tie the Knot in Katlehong

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2013 Nov. 14: Photos from 2013 Feather Awards

2013 Nov. 14:   Photos from 2013 Feather Awards

Our Miss Black Pride, Candice with a friend…

Photos by Nqobile Zungu
Camera used:  Canon 60D with 55-200mm lens
Where:  Theatre on Track, Midrand. Johannesburg

The best hosts of the evening were Lalla and Stoan who kept the audience captivated... Photos by Nqobile Zungu (14.11.2013)

The best hosts of the evening were Lalla and Stoan who kept the audience captivated…
Photos by Nqobile Zungu (14.11.2013)

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Mshoza at the back looking like a crying bird, in front Kuli Roberts accepts the Drama Queen of the Year award for Savita Mbuli

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Premier Nomvula Mokonyane took the Diva extraordinaire of the year award

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… the hunk on the right is Phila Madlingozi

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Bujy Bikwa with a friend posing on the red carpet, BB won the best Socialite of the Year award

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Pearl Thusi on the right won the Fag hag of the year…

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Our lovely couple, Steve Letsike & partner Lucy…

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Old friends, MamRuby of Generations and Charmain Carrol…

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Leptie Phume on the right with friends

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Stunning melodies by Brenda Mntambo singing trio with Thembisile & Kelly…

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Thapelo Mokoena, the winner of the Best Styled Male category

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Thapelo and Mr Gay SA…?

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MiCasa took home the award for Musician of the year…

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Our trio Thembisile Ntaka, Brenda Mntambo and Kelly Khumalo… left the audience with goose bumps after singing Michael Jackson’s Earth Song

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L-R: Yaya Mavundla, Candice centred a friend…

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… gorgeous gaze

Stylish Leptie with the beautiful Boitu Thulo...

Stylish Leptie with the beautiful Boitu Thulo…


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2013 Nov. 15: ‘It gets better’ with Feather Awards

 


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2013 March 28: Feather Awards (re)viewed


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2013 Nov. 15: ‘It gets better’ with Feather Awards

by Lerato Dumse

Wearing our Sunday best, with bags filled with cameras, recorders, notebooks, tripods and equipment batteries fully charged, we left home ready to work.
The destination was Kyalami Theatre on the Track, where the 5th Annual Feather awards took place on the 14th of November 2013.

The event was scheduled to start at 7pm but many guests took full advantage of African time.
Others were excited strutting on the red carpet to have their photos taken by craving journalists who were pushing each other for the best celebrities’ shot.
That commotion delayed the starting time by more than an hour. South African celebrities and partners, some with friends were dressed elegantly, looking beautiful. Only those with invites were allowed.

The best hosts of the evening were Lalla and Stoan who kept the audience captivated... Photos by Nqobile Zungu (14.11.2013)

The best hosts of the evening were Lalla and Stoan who kept the audience captivated…
Photos by Nqobile Zungu (14.11.2013)

Vuzu’s Lalla Hiyarama and Stoan Seate were the hosts for the evening and when he walked on stage wearing what looked like a speedo the audience unleashed wild screams of excited female and male voices. The pair reminded everyone that same sex marriage was legalised on this day back in 2006, making South Africa the only African country to recognise same sex marriage and the fifth in the world.

Founder of the awards is 28 year old Thami Kotlolo, born in Mamelodi in Tshwane (Pretoria).

“I started the awards due to my passion and interest in the entertainment industry and a need for more fun and funky awards” said Thami. When asked about the selection process of nominees and winners, he explained that they come up with five names which are given to the judges, mainly journalists who then select the most deserving.
“The recipients are not necessarily gay, it is the gay community giving a pat in the back to individuals who continue to empower the gay community in whichever industry they represent” he explained.
The active youth added that being broadcast on national TV results in the dialogue continuing and people will love the engagement.

The ceremony commenced with a spectacular performance by dance group Vintage Crew.
The awards provided a good dose of witty humour and a few awkward moments, which included presenter Akhumzi Jezile nominated in the Fag hag of the year category walking on stage. Pearl Thusi was announced as the winner instead of him and snatching the award before leaving the stage.

The ever confident Bujy Bikwa reminded everyone that, ‘it gets better’ after collecting his award for Socialite of the year.

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Ms Tamara Dey’s performing act during the awards

Tamara Dey was wearing something that looked suspiciously like it was inspired by Lady Gaga, it hugged her bum or rather the area where her bum should have been. The song was a total flop, luckily the dancers and rapper Reason salvaged the situation. While trio, Kelly Khumalo, Brenda Mntambo and Thembisile Ntaka gave a heart-warming performance of Michael Jackson’s Earth song which got the audience on their feet.
The final performance was by KB Motsilanyane with her hit track ‘Rock Lefatshe.

Collecting her award for Diva extraordinaire, Gauteng Premier Nomvula Mokonyane said: “South Africa belongs to everyone who lives in it, including lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender and intersex (lgbti) people. Being given this award, is a sign of tolerance and a sign of respect for diversity. This token of appreciation is not for Nomvula as an individual, it’s for what I stand for and believe in” the audience erupted in loud applause.

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Muholi’s acceptance speech…

The main award of the evening was Feather of the year which is presented to an individual whose work and actions have uplifted the gay and lesbian community. In receiving the award, photographer/ visual activist Zanele Muholi gave a two minute speech part of which said:
Girls love girls and boys love boys. There is no need for people to be killed.
Just give us an opportunity to be visible, love each other, marry and not be discriminated against.”

Palesa Kadi, works in the communications and partnership department at the Film and Publications Board (fpb). They, together with Chevrolet sponsored the feather awards.
In an interview with Inkanyiso, Kadi discussed the campaign run by fpb on cyber safety.
“We have seen overtime that there are a lot of cases involving the gay and lesbian community. There’s a lot of vulnerability and sexting in the lesbian and gay community and when people breakup, their pictures are spread. We need spaces where we can find organized communities, if we talk one on one we are not going to make impact, here we are able to pass our message.”
When asked about the criteria for those looking for sponsorship she explained that they partner with people who have proved themselves, “this is our second year with the feathers in their five years of existence.”

Beverly Ditsie was like a child who has overdosed on sweets, her mood was jovial and she couldn’t keep still or contain her excitement.
Speaking in an eager tone she said “I love the feathers, it’s the one time in the year where there’s no politics involved. Almost every lgbti event has some politics involved.
Politics of pride and ‘who owns pride and this is black pride’ and I’m not disputing any of that. Pride went short left and this year it came back to short right, it’s very clear that we have issues and we are not addressing them. This is the one time were we don’t have to have any addressing of issues. We are here, looking fabulous to have a good time.”

Bev as she is affectionately known said receiving an award at the feathers last year was awesome. “I was very excited, nervous and humbled, all at the same time. When you go for so many years without any recognition for the work you’ve done. It becomes normal not to be called for anything. Now I’m seeing all these young people, awesome looking. When I was coming out at 17 years there were no visible lesbians. When we started the organization Glow in 1988 there was only one other black lesbian. Now when I see these young people visible, there’s a thick sense of pride and sometimes I look at them and it’s sad because they don’t know their history and the people who paved a way and laid the ground work.

When asked what fellow comrade Simon Nkoli would have thought of the awards if he was still alive. She responds with confidence and a broad smile. “Simon was a typical queen, he would be laughing and screaming and calling everybody to say hello, just having a good time.
However, he would be heartbroken at the way things are in our broader LGBTI community.”

When all the formalities were done, people moved from the hall to the reception area where a serve yourself supper was available.
With stomachs full and drinks in hand from the open bar, and a Dj who knew his job.
Faces were full of smiles and people unleashing all sorts of dance moves with help from Johnny, Jameson, Captain Morgan, and many others.

 

List of winners

  • Best styled female: Azania Mosaka
  • Best styled male: Thapelo Mokoena
  • Hunk of the year: Pallance Dladla
  • Diva extraordinaire of the year: Premier Nomvula Mokonyane
  • Sports Personality of the year: Lucas Sithole
  • Role model of the year: Thulani Madondo
  • Cutest couple: Mome & Tall Ass Mo
  • Hot chick of the year: Nomzamo Mbatha
  • Media of the year: After 9
  • Fag hag of the year: Pearl Thusi
  • Musician of the year: MiCasa
  • Socialite of the year: Bujy Bikwa
  • Drama queen of the year: Savita Mbuli
  • Feather of the year: Zanele Muholi
     

Previous on 2012 Feather awards

 

2013 March 28: Feather Awards (re)viewed

 

 

 

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2013 Nov. 11: Researching Resilience

 

A journey of research on Black lesbians in South Africa and finding hope

by Bridget Ngcobo

In January of 2012 I ventured to Katlehong, a township in Johannesburg to conduct ethnographic research on Black South African lesbian activism, with grassroots organization Ihawu. With the guidance and tutelage of visual activist Zanele Muholi and academic Zethu Matebeni I embarked on a journey that changed my life. I suppose there are few ways to express the sentiment of having ones life changed without at first sounding dramatic, but the Black lesbians I met while conducting my research are unveiling the possibility of paradigm shifts and thus changed my life.

When I first set out to do this research on Black lesbians in South Africa, being based at an American tertiary institution, unaware of the activism. I was entirely focused on the violence being meted out on Black lesbian bodies.
Having read of disturbing cases of ‘corrective rape’ and other forms of torture being suffered by Black lesbians in South African townships, all I wanted to do was expose the violence. But instead, I ended up being called instead to write of the vitality of Black lesbian activism.

Writing about one’s own identity through an Academic lens is always complicated work. At the time of conducting my research, I was looking to understand myself.  Having spent my formative years of academic awakening in the United States, I wanted to come back to South Africa with words to describe what and how my consciousness was formed.

Sitting in the ivory tower, all I had ever known was that Black lesbians were seen as social pariahs and cultural dissidents despite having enumerated rights in South Africa’s constitution, hence my limited focus.
I have to explain where I was coming from, not to exonerate myself from the guilt of indulging in the sensationalist nature of exposing violence, but rather to explain that the consumption of Black South African lesbians can be another form of violence.

My journey with Muholi started at a Human Rights Watch presentation of , We’ll Show You Youre a Woman,on violence and discrimination experienced by Black  lesbians in South African townships. After the presentation I went to lunch in Woodstock, Cape Town with Muholi and Matebeni. The mood was set by the South Africa’s summer sun and the vibrant colors one is bound to see on Woodstock’s streets close to trendy galleries and eateries.

Before eating together Muholi made a stop at the Michael Stevenson Gallery to check in on her Exhibition. Sitting at Kitchen alone with Matebeni for a while I dissolved into a panicked tirade on working my frustration with reaching a cohesive research question.  She listened patiently, after I finished she asked me, why I was not interested in writing about the joy of lesbian sexuality or lesbian pleasure. It was a simple question that set the stage for a research project that changed my sense of self. After Muholi returned, both her and Matebeni exchanged the most delicious stories of Black lesbian lives and vitality. This made me realize that what Matebeni was saying, is that violence against Black lesbians is only a small component of a much larger picture regarding Black lesbian consciousness in South Africa.

A few days later, I followed Muholi to Johannesburg and ended up conducting a group interview in Katlehong with members of Ihawu. After the interview I helped Muholi with taking photographs of the ladies and experiencing both their faces and lives bought to life the personification of resilience.  The seed planted by Matebeni grew into what became the focus of my research.
The members of Ihawu spoke passionately of their plans to confront homophobia in the township, speaking of efforts to make safe sex kits available for gay and lesbian South African’s in their local clinic. They skillfully articulated how they planned on growing networks to expand employment opportunities both within Ihawu and beyond. I knew after this visit that not writing about their activism and resilience would be as criminal as the violence inflicted on Black lesbian bodies in township spaces.

It is important to acknowledge, confront and write about corrective rape and other instances of torture and violence against Black lesbians, but it is also important to realize that is only half the story.
Muholi’s 2006, photographic portrayal of violent discrimination faced by black lesbians in South Africa, is thus aptly named,“Only Half the Picture.”
Black lesbians lives and activism reveal an agency centered on Blackness and femininity that is cannot be mistaken. Thus engaging with power in a way that forced me to look introspectively at my own latent possibility as an agent of change in post-apartheid South Africa.

A year after the completion of my thesis “Your Silence Will Not Protect You: (Re) presenting Resilience – The Black South African Lesbian; Activism and the Individual.”
I went to the Yancey Richardson Art Gallery, in Chelsea, New York to see Muholi’s Faces and Phases exhibition.
I walked into the gallery wide eyed, brimming with emotions, nostalgic for the strength and courage home. At this point I was working at a corporate law firm, young, drained and desperate for a reminder of my own capacity to affect change in my own country. When I stepped into the gallery I found what I was looking for.

Some Faces & Phases portraits exhibited

Some Faces & Phases portraits exhibited

One of the most striking aspects of Muholi’s piercing black and white portraits of Black lesbians presented through the Faces and Phases project is that it calls for introspection.  You can see your own reflection in the eyes of the women that Muholi dares you to engage with.
The frames and glass do not act as barrier, but instead facilitate you seeing yourself in their eyes of Black lesbians.
This introspection dares you to ask what role you play in the lives of Black lesbians in South Africa. Even if your role, like mine, is to stand quietly in a gallery in New York, and ask difficult questions of post-apartheid South Africa:
like what does it mean to be Black?
And what does it mean to be lesbian in a place that condemns you for loving who you love?
And finally what does it mean to (re)define the terms of your agency despite your circumstance?

The research I conducted in South Africa on Black lesbian activism changed my life and continues to do so today, begging me to ask more questions, (re)visit the parameters of my own agency and propels me (re)present the agency of Black lesbians in South Africa.

About the author

Bridget Ngcobo is a Black South African poet.
She is an adventurous spirit born in Pietermaritzburg, educated in Massachusetts and constantly finding strength in the lives of those around her. The eyes and the stories of others remind her always, that Marianne Williamson must have been right when she said, “our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.”

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2013 Nov. 8: Great performance at the Ms Gay Soweto 2013 Semi Finals

2013 Nov. 8:   Ms Gay Soweto 2013 Semi Finals

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Photos by Lebo Ntladi (08.11.2013)
Where: Uncle Tom Hall, Soweto. Johanneburg
What: Miss Gay Soweto Semi-finals
Finals to be held on the 7th Dec. 2013 at Soweto Theatre.

 

About the photographer

 

Kelebogile Ntladi was born in Soweto and raised on the East of Johannesburg.
Lebo was schooled and matriculated at Dominican Convent School in Belgravia in 2006, went to Cape Town to pursue studies in Fine Arts at Cape College.
Cape Town became a space of exploration and insight into the art world, introduced to Zanele Muholi and the Gugulective collective of visual artists. Upon return to Johannesburg in 2010.
Lebo volunteered at Keleketla library as a photographer which inspired studies in Photography at the Market Photo Workshop in 2012. Here the interest in social documentary and portrait photography and started taking shape.
After her studies she worked with Inkanyiso, a queer media organization based in Johannesburg.

Lebo was interested in creating social change through art.
In 2013 started working with a human rights Queer Visual Media Organization based in Johannesburg, called Iranti-Org. Lebo participated in group shows at the Market Photo Workshop.

Her photographic body of work titled “Split Halves’ was on show at the University of Johannesburg in September 2013.
The show will move to Cape Town in February at Michaelis, University of Cape Town, where her new body of work ‘Umshini Wam’ will be on show before her first solo exhibition in Cape Town in March 2014 at 6 Spin Street Gallery.
Lebo is currently based in Johannesburg.

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2013 Nov. 12: God, the lesbian, the sin

 
Oh why is it that I feel I have sinned
I have lusted over her,
with hips so wide.
There’s nowhere for me to hide
What sin is this?
What scale will it be measured by
God?
The lesbian
The sin

It’s just so damn confusing
Why does she have to possess perky breasts?
That make me drool and wet.
Why does she have to be so soft
and when she moves the wind sways towards her direction.
God
The lesbian
The sin

I converse with God every night
this is what he says:

“You are my daughter I love you with everything that I am,
I have said in my word I do not approve of your lust over other women,
I do not despise you,
I despise the demon in you.”

I do not mean to speak out of turn,
but
Why does she have to smile and make my insides shudder in fear?
Why does she have to have a posture so great I want to climb and do things to her?
Why am I so taken by her nakedness?
Everything sinfully winking at me to bite
Bite and touch,
Touch and caress,
Caress and penetrate,
Penetrate and cum,
Cum in floods,
Floods of ecstasy that no man has ever achieve.

I converse with the Devil after every lustful ordeal,
here’s what he says:
“God is telling you shit.
Fuck her,
Love her,
Lust over her,
Do whatever you feel is right and pleasure yourself.
Indulge in this for the greatest sin would be to deny yourself what God has allowed,
this is no sin it simply is happiness.
He wants you to be happy right?
So he says, “I want you to live freely with no rules after all my lesbian,
the Bible is full of threats and blackmail.”

Oh but why does it hurt when I disobey my Creator?
How can you say such,
I don’t know if you are to be listened to.
I wonder if you deserve any of my attention
but you make so much sense
God
The lesbian
The sin

Why does she have to moan in bliss?
Why are her eyes so inviting?
Almost like windows that peep through her soul.
Her curvy chubby body does things to me,
that are incomprehensible to any scribe.

I spoke to the lesbian after the mind blowing sex she had
But why do you do this?
What is it about women that draw you in?
Do you believe you are possessed by a demon, so sexy and fatal?
Here’s what the Lesbian said:
“But I have tried for so many years to suppress these feelings,
I went out with guys,
I slept with them,
I had babies with them,
Hell I married three of them,
but the feeling wouldn’t go away.
My first husband was addicted to sex.
He fucked me all the time and it pained me so much.
Well, the second one was an intellectual
always reading but wanted a big family
so once or twice a month we would have sex
all the while shooting for a baby.
Third one was a slob but abusive, drinks, pees and farts.
That was when I knew I had to go get my women.
See the crux is.
If it is so wrong why then does it feel so damn good to me?
Why am I happy for the first time in my life?”
Oh how awful.
Perhaps you need more prayers,
fast and listen to God.
Why does her skin glow,
blinding my beliefs and my traditions?
Her lips glistening with red lipstick
that is like the insides of her womanhood,
so refreshing and edible.
Why does she have to be so gentle and subtle?

Her stiletto walk makes a sound that directs me to the bedroom
where she lays bare for me to see.

Her perfume lures me.
I lose sense of reality.
This all here is holy.
Where angels refuse to tread
in case they catch site of this and fall into sin.

Is it pure magic, or an illusion?
It is poetry and art.
Skin so pale,
I need to touch it with my lips and gifted hands to breathe
and sink life into it.
Pure bliss.
Words cannot do any justice into this masterpiece.
Head spinning like a top.
I feel my blood clotting
the heart is in joy.
The head comes up with nothing
The eyes bare witness
to one of the most beautiful women
to grace mother earth.

I’ll pray hard.
Live slow.
Maybe repent.
Dance gently.
Meditate.

This is, oh so Godly.
All so lesbian.
and perhaps a sin.
God.
The lesbian
The sin.

I pray
I choose the latter.

by Thulielove Gifted Hands Sodumo

© 20 Aug 2012

 

 

 

 

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2013 April 3: Reflecting on InterSexions

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